Friday, March 09, 2007

Divorce is Weird

Patrick was served with the divorce papers last night. He assures me he will sign them and set the kids and me free. He has surprised me by telling me that he is "at peace" with all this and that he agrees I am doing the right thing. Imagine that! Divorcing your husband and having him tell you he agrees with it...that makes me sad and happy all at the same time.

In the end, I am happy to report that I am not divorcing Patrick for lack of loving him, nor even for lack of loving him ENOUGH...I am divorcing him because I could not love myself and be married to him at the same time. So, I guess that means my answer is, I love myself and my children TOO much to continually subject them to the pain of Patrick's mental illness and struggles with addictions. It is a good thing
to be divorcing for love not hate.

Patrick had a slip in his recovery. I told him if he slipped and did drugs ever again (nitrous oxide, to be exact) it was over. He did them again (after spending $15,000 and 3 months in rehab) I kept my word. It's over from a marital standpoint.

I know I don't have to ask for your support, as family and friends, I know
that you give it.

I don't have to ask you to pray for us, as family and friends, you give that too.

3 comments:

Watty said...

I am truly sorry for having to go through this. You are truly superwoman sometimes, and it amazes me that you seem so strong through all of this!

Shekky said...

Stay strong...I'll continue to think of you and the kiddos.

Mamapotamus said...

You guys are all in my prayers. Stay strong, you are doing right by your kids and yourself!